I'm getting really irritated that I've only made a five pound dent in the 50lbs I need to lose since November. I haven't eaten french fries in three months. I've been hitting the gym and strength training like never before, eating a lot better than I used to. I'm making an effort. Sure, I've slipped up a few times. There are temptations in college life that are really hard to overcome, chinese here, mexican there...but seriously I'm doing so much better than I used to, honestly so much better, and all I have to show for it is five measly pounds. It's unreal. If I hadn't put in all this work would weigh 200lbs by now? Was the way I was living before that out of whack that such a change only gets me five pounds in loss? It's scary to think that this is the amount of effort I have to put in just to not gain more.
I hate this, that in order to not get bigger I have to exercise almost every day, and only eat what I want 1/3 of the time. I guess I just have to get used to the idea that this is going to require a lot more work and diligence than I originally thought. I know I could put forth more effort, I guess I though that 60% effort was enough. I was wrong...this is going to take 100% effort, real dedication. If I stop if I backslide into my old ways I will gain a ton of weight I know that. When I don't pay attention I gain...that's just how it is. My history doesn't lie. When I came home from Moscow in Dec 2009 I weighed 167lbs. Over the course of the next semester I gained 13lbs to 180lbs. In the summer of 2010 I managed to lose 4lbs and I started the fall semester at 176. Then I made the GOOD decision to quit smoking...I gained 8lbs. Finally this past November I decided that enough was enough. Well now I'm down to 179. And somewhere in there I reached a low of 177.2. I want to see that number again and still lower. I can't really give up now can I?
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